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Walking Through Fog

Four weeks tomorrow my brother died expectantly. I am just starting to get out of the fog that I have been walking through the last four weeks, but I know I am not all of the way out of it yet. There is still another week and a half before we bury him.

My brother died due to a drug overdose (for more info on that check out the Write or Die episode where I talk about it a little more). He had suffered with addiction (a mental health illness) for most of my life, most of his life. When someone you care about dies suddenly it is a complete shock to the system. Though I always feared this would be his outcome I still held out hope that it wouldn’t end this way.

I keep thinking to myself, is there something else that I could have done? Something I could have said? Something I missed?

But ultimately, thinking like that won’t bring him back, it will just keep me in this fog of sadness. I know he loved me. I hope he knew that I loved him too.

What I want to share right now is that if you are struggling reach out. Your family may have created a boundary but they still love you. You are not alone.

If you love someone who is hurting and you don’t know how to help. Reach out. One of the hardest things for me right now is the what ifs. It is the talking with my mom about what could have been done differently. It is hearing how she wishes she did more. That hurt and guilt is not healthy. Though it is normal, it needs to be worked through.

Speak up, be honest, and get help if you need it.

 

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Review: Preternatural by Peter Topside

This book had a really interesting storyline and is a a great read for the teenager in your life that loves all things horror. At first it seems as though the monster is a vampire and yet he really isn’t. There are vampire-esque qualities but there is so much more t

Preternatural: A psychological horror book (Preternatural Trilogy 1) by [Peter Topside]

o it than that. It was interesting reading the first few chapters getting to know the characters and trying to determine which ones would play the biggest roles in the book.

It doesn’t take long before you get to figure that out and I was surprised to find out who would be a main monster lead. There was great friendships developed in the book that made it all the more interesting to see how they either grew or deteriorated as the book progressed. The ending had some of what I expected but took on a life of its own with pieces that I was not expecting. Don’t worry I won’t ruin it for you but just know that there is more than you will expect.

Underlying all of this monster hunting and murder is a tale of a teenager overcoming his anxiety and trauma. It was interesting to read how this character developed from a kid who was scared of speaking with girls to someone who stood up against the great evil.

Overall I truly enjoyed this book and look forward to reading the next installment.

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Review: Yoga Cocaine by Daralyse Lyons

This is not the type of book I would normally pick up but I loved it and wanted to see how the main character’s life wouldB081W8SBVR end up. I am happy to say that I have not had to deal with drug addiction but I still felt a deep connection with this book and the struggle of the main character to get her life together. The struggle of failure and the fight to get some semblance of normalcy and happiness.

The book is written in a way that follows the 12-step program which was such an interesting structure. The other main topic of the book was incorporating yoga into recovery. I connected with this portion of the book so much that during one of my yoga flows I cried. Releasing some of the trauma that I had stored, the same way it was described in the book.

If you know someone who is struggling this is a book that you need to read. It will give you some understanding of what they may be going through and the thoughts of self-hatred. Addiction is not a choice that people make. It is a mental health illness that needs serious and long-term help and understanding.

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Review: Where the Light Shines by Kelly Inviere

I love poetry and have written quite a bit of it over the years. It was my main coping mechanism during my teenage years when I didn’t think that I could go on. That was how I compiled my first book Thoughts of a Wanderer and even added in some poetry to my mostWhere the Light Shines Through: A Memoir in Poetry by [Kelly Inviere] recent book. The point is I love poetry.

And the book Where the Light Shines by Kelly Inviere is a book of poetry. She uses poetry much in the same way that I did to cope with some difficult and traumatizing times in her life. She does a fantastic job!

Poetry is a very fluid form of expression and there are many ways to write it. Personally, using some type of rhyming scheme is a must. Which is a big positive for this book as Kelly incorporates various strategies of rhyming. It is an easy read but a heartfelt and deep dive read. The more poems that you read the more you can see how the story of her life unfolds. It is a very unique way to write an autobiography and it was a pleasure to read.

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The Man in the Pit Review by David Bishop

This book is short and sweet. If you are looking for a quick read that is still entertaining and informative this is the book for you. Just like the title says it is about a man in a  pit. Through this imagery the author shows how someone who is suffering with depression might feel and see the world. It also shows the side of society and how people with depression are often treated (or rather mistreated).

The Man in the Pit: A short story to help loved ones recognize, understand, and respond to depression by [David Bishop]

Now, before you start thinking that you can just read this book and everything will be roses in your life stop because this is not a replacement for treatment. This was not written by a doctor but someone who wanted to share his experiences with others in the hopes that it will help them to understand their loved ones who may be going through depression.

And he succeeds in this purpose. The way that he describes being the man in the pit and how others speak with him about being in the pit is so close to how I have experienced moments of depression.

If you want a quick read to help you understand a loved one who is experiencing depression this is the book for you.

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